GRANNY BALLLERRRR!!!!!

i love you.  okay.  maybe not.  but i think ithat maybe i do.  and it’s probs b/c you remind me of my super late hs bf which is weirrrrrrddddd right?!??!  but you are such a cutie an di really really like you an d i think we get along well and maybe ould balance each ohetr out well?  i don’t know.  b/c i don’t actually know you.  but i like you.  kinda.  yeah.  it’s just…. would it be weir?d  how do i procee.d  please let me know.  a;asldkfjsa;dfj

it’s been a while since i’ve last felt this crush feelign for someone who hasn’t already outright rejected me ……….

BUT WHAT NERR

seriously though, what nexr? what the feuck next? where am i suppoded o go form here?  i reach a scertain mpoint, a point that i’ve been to many a itme before, and hten i keep returning and returnig and eretuning elnless return with no lessons learned and i don’t know what happens whaen i fnally get tired of it.  giving hup?  and it’wn not so bad when i have no remindersthat things could be different.  and thne i get etbitter and tell m ysefl that these other things i’m trying to do – the moving, the runing away, the bridge burning — will be the answer muh lke it’s been before except it’s NEVER ATUALY WORKED because here i ma agai b.  i do’ t know what comes next.  i don’t wknow wheat i’m expected to do. i don’t know

AND I PUT MY HANDS UOP (<—-miley in case you forget)

Weel, let me keep it real: liook, freind/ oif there is a possiblility f of THANDS happeneing tomorrowin night then imma abandon you. JUST KEEPIN IT REA:. I will take the [readacted[ pr the [redeacted] b/c they are both cut eand tehy are ob th vcute. TURTHB TO POWER> UMMMMM. but surriously tho.

(i once was a kid all i had was a dream mor money mor problems blah blah blsh avlah blshhhhhhhhhh do me asian boyyyyyyyyyyy)))))))))))))) this life is a partyyyyyyy

FUCK YOU!!!!

basically, in the last 30minutes tha ti caught of yoru set, you plaed all th e weird ish i listended to in HS — not evn the good ish, but just the random ish (Ilike “white trash” by junior senior?!?  wha?!??  that was one of my fave songs on my workout mix senior year of HS!!!!  dag, son1!).  and now i dunn oif you’re sitll spinnin gor if this is from the next person, but 36-24-36 WHCIHC I LURVVEEE followed by blister in thes on?!?  who are you kidding!??!?!?  THIS IS LIKE DAGGERS TO MY HEART fuck you.  oh god.  and now this is the THIRD FUCKING SONG FROM THE DONNIE DARKO SOUNDTRACK THAT IV’E HEARD okay i think there are just lame emo robots u pin the studio right now b/c thsi is NOT RIGHT.  isn’t yr show supposed ot be hiohop??  what thfe fuck

anywya.  you are sitll a cutie.  i admit i glanced at osme pics.  and you still a cutie.  but really?  who am i thining of right now???  THAT MOTHERFUCKER ACROSS THE STREET NEIGHBOR OF MINE FROM WAY BAC K IN THE DAY.  remember when i showed you the dress i thrifted?  that’s still the hottest dress i own.  UFCK YOU.  i hate that i hatedyou and while i hated you you fell for premie-hipster girls.  i can only blame myself for yr coke habit and descent into SUCKING /..  a;jadsf;jadfs;a;dskafds;fadsjklasfkfsjfa

hey, wanna eff?!?

oh hay

so i feel like ie been canabalizing this webiste buy we so here goes: i think i;e sort of decideded to bwe obsessed with you,,, outy of borewdom and yr curteness BOTH. YEAH SO i will have yr present for tyou tomorrow and then you will go off with someone else buyt you know thats how these things go so enjoi.

to: all the boys

diede,

if it wewnt for mirroras i wouldhit on youb ALL THE TIME>

dounble you tee eff

SERIOUSBLY/. ebery., single, time. what the fuck. so hyou’re having sex with some girl. here i am–trying to play ti cool–but youre alerady off with smeone else.

WHAT THE HELL.

fanks. fanks fr making me feel like a idJET/. goddamnit. and now how am i supposed to act? whatr am i supposed to say?? ARGH! i just wanted to watch a movie and eat popped coen!!!!

ARRRRGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!

oh snap! it’s the return1!

i’m back mothercucker and you know?  b/c i’m drunk!  and b/c you know i woas out w/ “someone”. it was fun. i hgot , well, grunk.  also, i suck at things. like being a normal person who doesn’t hiave issues. it is hard. but it was fun!

um but this is where the fucked up part comes int ……. i met a dude while biking home!  i got his name, what grad program he’s in, and where he curently works, but didn’t think to get a hnumber or set up a date. e was a cutie.

HEY CUTIE@ !!  HOLLA AT ME!!!

maybe it was the booze but i was biking at a respectiable speed, NOT PANTING, and able to hold semi-charming conversaoitn!  i’m so proud of myself!

also, i still wnat to fuck you /,  you know who you are.  you suck, you’r unattractive, and you’re kind of boring.  but i still want to fuck you. (sowwy mabisaa!!!)

Motherfucker.

Fuck you.

P.S. I’ll never admit that you made me cry.

DAMN

i didnt eeven mean to drink so much but i hueess it happens. LISTEN. okay. i’m gross, i know that. like, totally gross. disgusting. i have a constantly running nose. i always have. since i was a id. my brother used to make fun of me for it. lie,, DUE I KNOW IM GROOSS OKAY. BUT. you were in high schooll!! i mean, arent ppl supposed to take what they can get in ihgh school!? even it iff they can do better? I MEAN COME ON. you should have just hit it to make me feel better about myself i would have been UNTOCHED at the time . (is that rue? i cant concentrate enuf yto remmeber?_)

WHATEVER> YR LOSS!! (not reallt. who we kiddnngi) god, i need to get over this tall skinny whit boy thing. it’s pa-effing-theticccc!!